waiting

the word WAITING easy to write or even spell it..but the meaning of it is unlimited...timeless...(my point of view) and this is ONE of  the hardest jobs to be DONE in our life....but it so meaningful when u totally overcome it~im looking forward this moment~waiting is full of patient...kindness..sincere..the most important is NO HATRED and looking forward the pay back of WAITING...good luck...

dumplings festival

hi, long time im not log in my blog~too busy until i have no idea to share the latest news of me~today is chinese festival, Dumpling festival (duan wu jie).....thinking past twenty plus years before that the day of today i was looking forward to swim around my "hometown"....fisherman village~this was because the sea water will rose up over the bridge which heading to my parents boat!!!having fun with my friends...swimming...chasing game  was the funniest game~~~i miss the time...when hungry,looking mummy for dumplings...it was so tasty because my mummy will cooked of dumplings..even though my mummy not able to wrap the zhong zi very nicely but the taste was the best taste i ever taste!!!!because she used to make it based on our taste and the ingredients in it!thank you mummy...let me share a ashamed news to u all, my mummy usually not let me go swim because of safety matter, so i usually went without her  notice~after that, sure not only dumplings will be my meal..added with a great soup called "tang tiu meng chu yuk"!!!!hahahahahahahaha....because i was a naughty boy.....but now is different, no even step my feet on the sand....our Sandakan well known beach...white sand beach~ just hanging out with my mummy and did gathering with my aunties because today is my eldest aunty birthday~~be their driver....hahaha...happy...thank you mummy..

my dream house~

today is Sunday,

a rest day for me!not busy and haunted by school jobs or volunteer jobs～but now me also extremely tiring with my new hse renovation~because not much money to renovate, every items need to survey the price and quality before buy it~seemed really hard to overcome this period of time~and wish this period of time may bear a nice fruits for me~hehehehehe....

now i really know what my elder brothers told me that not easy to be a fully time house owner~~hehehehehehe....my dear friends,please blessing me that i may move in my new house smoothly ~jiayo oh!!! but by the way i learn a lot during this period!a nice gift from GOD to drill me to be a wiser person~~hahaha

beloved one

hi my dear friends,

long time im not drop in my blog due the mountain loaded works cant be UNLOADED in the planning period!!!!maybe im a lazy man~

today my tittle is beloved ONE～WAO...seemed im in the dating period now but sadly to say that im NOt~~hahaha...always we heard that peoples said "when in love period, the love will cover the eyes and our mind" izit true?do u agree of it?it maybe or not also~but what i observed nearly 90% of the couples have this situation~a very care cleanliness man will cover his eyes n let his gf to put the clothes not at the correct place, but he not even touched or care of this matters~or she just let her bottles or glasses after drank it just to let there waiting to ants to taste her drink!for me, for sure she will be mumbling by me and like my mummy said she will RUN away from me because of my weird attitudes!!!hahahahahaha...i agreed what my mummy said..

coming back to the my title, if i said won get into that situation sure my dear friends not believe on me~i learn this lesson before with my x-gf~i tq her so much because she let me a mirror to reflect who am i and how i need to be a good bf....so finally i gave up her because i noe that im not the best and ideal bf or a husband to her~i will try to learn from my lover n see who am i...then to avoid that i LOST in my life because of LOVE~

thats easy to say or to write a word of LOVE but not AN EASY TASK to do~some peoples using SEX as a measure tape to measure how the relationship going!it totally WRONG!too much of definition regarding of love....as i learn n my own opinion toward love is i must know how to love myself and my beloved parents then we go for love the one who u loooking for in ur life WITHOUT LOST urself because he or she~

without urself the love u given out not the truly one n for sure the person who be with u will feel on u~believe or not?

comparison from "zen"

Comparison brings inferiority, superiority. When you don't compare, all inferiority, all superiority, disappears. Then you are, you are simply there. A small bush or a big high tree--it doesn't matter; you are yourself. You are needed. A grass leaf is needed as much as the biggest star. Without the grass leaf God will be less than he is. This sound of the cuckoo is needed as much as any Buddha; the world will be less, will be less rich if this cuckoo disappears. Just look around. All is needed, and everything fits together. It is an organic unity: nobody is higher and nobody is lower, nobody superior, nobody inferior. Everybody is incomparably unique.

Who ever told you that the bamboo is more beautiful than the oak, or the oak more valuable than the bamboo? Do you think the oak wishes it had a hollow trunk like this bamboo? Does the bamboo feel jealous of the oak because it is bigger and its leaves change color in the fall? The very idea of the two trees comparing themselves to each other seems ridiculous, but we humans seem to find this habit very hard to break. Let's face it, there is always going to be somebody who is more beautiful, more talented, stronger, more intelligent, or apparently happier than you are. And conversely, there will always be those who are less than you in all these ways. The way to find out who you are is not by comparing yourself with others, but by looking to see whether you are fulfilling your own potential in the best way you know how.

"holidays"

hi, long time not even log in my blog~ this was because too busy to unload my mountain jobS!!! finally i got one more extra holiday due i was fell sick: shore throat, gastric, coughing and flu!!!!usually we may order espresso with single or double shot, now im much more perfect took double double shot; four types sickness!!kekekekeke....this type of  holidays not nice to spend because a lot of "sweets" by doctor!!!!

this told me that im not a good timing planner because i may not able to settle my jobs well till i got sick now~also can said if not sick, i won face the computer and drop my words in my blog~hihihih...

new house design

my dear friends,
im planning to move in my new house, a double storey terrace house. now im doing research in interior design, so anyone have any good ideas which may share with me?im preferring relaxing mode with natural color and for sure is budgeting~hehehe...im waiting the golden views from you all loh~tq tq :)

im coming back

hi my dear friends,

long time not log in my blog....today is the 1st day of school half semester break~thinking sure will fill up with long nice activities and relaxing programs~ but mine not, just feel to reduce and unloaded the high mountain jobs in my hands~yesterday spent time to mark my students experiments report, hmm...dont know why i keep repeating and show the correct ways to write a good report but end up with mistakes also: the worst was the calculation ;addition ONLY!!!maybe i also doing the same when i was in secondary school~hahaha...

my one week holidays schedules filled up with school works, my new house designs, social and relaxing programs (yoga, swimming and fast walk). this early morning i did 6km fast walk within 50minutes and think i can improve it well as well as i do more practices~maybe...hahaha...the cool and refreshing air filled up my lungs...to the inner of my heart~and exhaled not well breath and emotion to the natural which may neutralized it naturally~felt so good~if u have time please have a try wake up early and do some exercises~

wish this week i may do what i planned~jiayo and all the best ~

form 6 gathering

each time gathered together during CNY mean one year past~25/01/2012 was form 6 gathering....just even few of us but the topic stick us together~what's that hot topic????this age, sure those marry or couple topics!hahaha...for me that not much to say about it because im single and not interested to join this big marriage society~different peoples different point of view towards love matters~but i agreed the most was when more times failure in love for male will bring up the male how to appreciate and love to his girl friend or wife~this is because male not very well in handling those love matters~each time facing the failure, male will grow up (mostly)  and learn from the failure~so one of my friends suggested girls that looking a male who really fail many times in love. because they know how to love their girl friend. on the other hand, he also said that girl not suppose dating so many times and fail many times in their life because each time failure will breaking down their beautiful dream towards love and finally they ended up with give up LOVE in their life~for sure because girls more towards to those feeling matters~a nice topic to be discussed~this so called man growing up will change not only physically but mentally also~jiayo and thanks for sharing~

consiuosness

We come from the unknown and we go on moving into the unknown. We will come again; we have been here thousands of times, and we will be here thousands of times. Our essential being is immortal but our body, our embodiment, is mortal. Our frame in which we are, our houses, the body, the mind, they are made of material things. They will get tired, they will get old, they will die. But your consciousness, for which Bodhidharma uses the word 'no-mind'--Gautam Buddha has also used the word 'no-mind'--is something beyond body and mind, something beyond everything; that no-mind is eternal. It comes into expression, and goes again into the unknown. This movement from the unknown to the known, and from the known to the unknown, continues for eternity, unless somebody becomes enlightened. Then that is his last life; then this flower will not come back again. This flower that has become aware of itself need not come back to life because life is nothing but a school in which to learn. He has learned the lesson, he is now beyond delusions. He will move from the known for the first time not into the unknown, but into the unknowable.

Osho Bodhidharma, the Greatest Zen Master Chapter 5

mask

i was shocked that i been comment which i was not pay respect to elders one~i drilling my mind to find out when it was i rudely talked to the elder one!!!!hey...im not angry or what oh~i just wondering why the others person so free and need to be paid attention!so pity..

the case was so funny because the elder one i was not use to meet the elder one directly or personally!usually i will keep silent during with the "elder" one especially in certain function!so i really could not recall when it was i rudely talked to the elder one~~i very well know that the way im talking so straight to the points but i will depends on the situation~

why this time blog title is "mASK"? and what related with those opening words?is it im FOOLING around you?hahaha...

this is because as ancient Chinese peoples said that "when we see ghost, we need to say GHOST TALK"....and "when we see HUMANs, we need to say HUMANS talk"!!!!whats great words!bravo~im proud of u~ because of the patterned society and the "status" of the person in the society caused we need to use so many different ways in communication~in the other words, we can said that we need know how to put on the good mask to face certain peoples~there so complicated in this society so we need so many complicated masks in our life until sometime we may lost ourselves in this "patterned society"!!!!

im very tiring of these patterned society, why not become ourselves will be commented of not "good" to others or not respects them? for me there must be a real and origin heart when in communication! then we can really get what the person deliver the message to us!thats the most important~

there "must" have MASK if we wish to still stand in this society~so please looking a good way out from this type life~

an apple

today my friend she told me "an apple"....i was stunt there for few minutes n thinking why she said "an apple" to me???? finally i decided to ask her why said so~then i found that what i was wrote in my yesterday blog~ hahahahaha...showed i really old!

thank you for those who read my broken English blog!i will try to improve my English and write something well!today was a busiest day in a week because i have 5 period lesson directly (40min/period) mean i non stop for 200minutes teaching!luckily my full breakfast let me deep energy to fight off that 200 minutes talking!hahahaha...

brought back the school works home to do,but only a small part i did!i found out some peoples really not well understanding verbal languages, so maybe they need very straight n directly show how the works to be done~i did show clearly what i need in my students homework but they still did something different~maybe they want to show me they are someone who different from others~jiayo :P

because of YOU PART 2

oh....one more that may share with you is : u may find how the feeling of being so called "love" by ur lover when they use their ways to love you...just like the apple example!!u just pay a min n think deeply of it~then im very sure u will know what im trying to say~

im so sorry because my english is not so good so cant able to express my words well~

because of YOU

when driving back from yoga class, suddenly pop out a memories of dating life~now i just found out when two persons stick together not an easy job!why i said so?hehehe...once we meet someone we like there such a pulling energy pulling you n her/him together just like the magnet do!what's a wonderful magic~~is easy to stick but not easy to keep and maintain this kind of relationship~two different peoples come from different family and so...live together is what's a hard "examination".....there so much things we need to consider the other because now no more stay or live alone~there is someone you love be with you~sure you included me will trying to get her/him the best so he/she will feel happiness because those will show how much you love he/she!!!!!!!!important point oh~~~by the way, is it that's call LOVE?do you ever think over what the LOVE inner meaning is?

after my yoga class, my mind clear and let me the answer of this question of LOVE in my life~for me LOVE doesn't mean you give all the best YOU THINK is good for he/she~i must know the way HOW TO LOVE MYSELF 1st then i know how to love others especially the one we looking for the rest of our life~we need to find out the needs of he/she then using their ways to love them~let me give an example "i think eat an apple is good for health, but do u ever think that he/she like eat an apple?" we keep telling he/she how the apple good for health~just because he/she also love you,he/she will start to take an apple even he/she not like to eat~so is it so called "LOVE"? just now i found that my ex-gf, she dont like eat vegetarian foods but im the one like it so much~she wish me happy then she started to like it and learn to eat...honestly she not really used to it!!hahaha....why i so slow?now i discovered this matter~~hahaha...

not because of this she n i chose to be single again!hahaha...if you wish to love someone or u do love someone, please try to figure out the way you love he/she is right to the point or not???????

spirit plus never give UP

today i was asked to be a volunteer for TZU CHI new year blessing function as photographer...for sure not professional one~hihihi..as the members told me that they estimated 320 peoples will attend the function~the clock show nearly 1500 which the function should be commenced but there still not much peoples seated there!i saw their spirit and never give up energy kept them singing a welcome at the door to welcome the coming peoples~finally there were around 40 peoples reached!the function started and smoothly ended!the person in-charged and the members showed their spirit that the coming year they will reach more n more peoples attend the function ...the most important to ensure more peoples join as the member of TZU CHI~they were so great~mostly of them more than 30+yrs ....willing spending their rest time to do more meaningful matters...not only for themselves but for more peoples who not related to them~the point was,WHERE the YOUNG GENERATION?we can see that the old generation spend the best for the young generation which only wish the young generation may have better life...and serve for the society ...this question will be answered someday in the future~

MANDALA

i been touched mandala few years before which brought over by master!that time i still couldnt read out the mandala meaning is~after back from JURIA N AMELL lessons,i found out the mandala just inside my soul....it been discovered and activated during the lesson!thank you so much JURIA N AMELL!during im doing on mandala, it let me so many deep feeling and peace in "mind" .....im very sure if i keep the ball rolling in doing mandala,i can discover the inner of me~jiayo...

SCHOOL REOPEN~

tomorrow will be the first day officially i start my 2012 work!im coming back to school...refresh back i been at school since i was 6 years old!i never away from school~kindergarten, primary, secondary, high school (STPM) n university then following working AT school~always there someone asking me that whether i will bored with this type of life which stick to the school for so many years~hahaha...i did feel bored before but after thinking back this job is to let me a good chance to serve the public~there not much happier than when meet my ex-students came back to visit me with their success!im the one who really bad teacher but im the one who the most students came back visit me~~hahaha..not show off but sharing ...once started teaching,my aim was to produce high quality of students especially in academic but now im not think so~im teaching using my heart and deliver my best to them~

sure loaded works waiting for me to clear it up and facing those colleagues with their "good" tempered"....im sure i can handle them well~my new year aim and mission of my teaching life is to deliver my knowledge and love to them...let them build up a healthy life following they manage to develop their healthy family ....jiayo

PORTIA N AMELL~

what's a wonderful midnight "supper" for me~PORTIA n AMELL my TAI CHUNG friends called me~even we separated by ocean...they sent their warm regards to me~just simple chat but it so wonderful and we support each others so well~im learning mandarin from them and they learn some my broken english~hahaha..i never forget to thank you SKYPE that let us chat for FREE!bravo SKYPE~~


the words from AMELL n PORTIA very supportive me to move and learn to figure out my destination~both ofu also need to be strong and im here will pray and may GOD blessing u, AMELL by sending u the luckiest angels all the ways of ur fashion shows...maybe one day i can be ur model...hahaha...thanks AMELL N PORTIA :P

school meeting

today was my first school meeting, previously i will kept on comments and mumbling what the mountain loaded jobs counted on me!!!some more those hardest jobs sure listed on me!today was the day totally different to me, browsed through the job lists........even my jobs will be bit more but i not even comment or said anything to it~the person in-charged kept mumbling this and that till he brought us to travel around south east china sea....hehehe....i kept on my emotion in peace and started to paint my mandala...my emotion totally in control and felt very enjoyable with mandala~i remembered my master, DA TZE master told me in this moment we need to practise to be patient and steady no matter in what conditions!in this way,we may keep in steady condition to face whatever problems and also keep our mind clear as crystal!thank you DA TZE master, i will keep on learning this!

another i wish to share is, no matter how worse the job is we use open heart to welcome and do it rather than we ignore it!because once ignorance come find us, we will struggling and suffering because we ignore it!directly our body will react in negative ways because of ignore!why not we accept it and do the best (not try the best because TRY mean we are not fully willing to face it)....sure by the process we do it,we will learn or find out something new in our life~jiayo

understanding

i believe that everyone in this world are searching someone who really understand us right for sure included myself~as i can shared with you that when i was a child, i was not so being "look at" by my family or friends~so i tried so hard to figure out what i can do to make them attention to me~i did it.....when stepped towards secondary school, trustworthy was the another "homework" for me to figure out~~~now moving another higher level....as mostly peoples will said that looking someone who really understand you to be with you for the rest of our life!!!!!!but the problem is,"DO ANYONE in this world really UNDERSTAND u?" now im figure out HOW to well understand myself  rather than looking someone to understand me~ im sure u also may do this..hihihihi...

happy new year 2012

my dear friends,

this is my first time learn to write blog..i always listen to others turning up with so many blogs and it is the ways someone who really can share his or her experiences or whatever happening in their life~~i like to read blogs but i not really interested on it!but last year, two great and wise persons asked me to start write because from writing i may find out what i wish to discover in my life~ my master asked me to write since early of 2011 but i never start till now..last year December, another teacher from TAI CHUNG (TAIWAN) asked me to start write 5 great or happy matters happen in my daily life...so i started with a small note book and write...finally i decided to start write blog...im so sorry because my English not so well some more im not mandarin educated so cant write in mandarin...jiayo